direction

For all the time I dreamed of enjoying life with enough money, yet I didn’t notice that I’ve never possessed the ability to achieve that kind of life. I’ve got money from my parents to have my dream, but I even don’t know how to realize it. Childish, not until today that I found this truth.

Where’s my direction? One professor asked me. And I don’t know how to answer. I planned things I’m gonna to do in the following years. I dreamed of life I’m longing for. But Jesus, I don’t know where my direction is. In which field I’ll put my passion, that I’ll dedicate my whole life chasing the great achievement within that field? I don’t know. Jeeez, I don’t know!

Get the master degree, CFA, be a professional in the field of finance, can speak a second foreign language fluently – sounds like I already know my direction for the next decade. But I see no passion in my mind, which means there’re still other things deserve effort given by me, in which I’ll find passion inside me. Just I haven’t found it yet.

So I asked him how I can find my direction, desperately. He just smiled, and shook his head.

Is it already too late?

No, even though he didn’t say anything. Only this answer can push me forward. I’ll prove that I’ll be more than the one that he thinks I’ll be.